My Domme Life

Curious what a day in my life looks like? I love the diversity in my life as a dominatrix. No day is the same, although content can be similar and juggled around throughout the week. Important pieces in the puzzle of my existence are exercise, yoga, meditation, reading, social media management, text, call or video sessions, answering emails and texts, preparing content and live sessions. 


I stay strong in body and mind to be the best Domme I can be. Yoga and meditation makes me attuned to what arises in a session and able to adjust to the client. I build bodily strength to keep the submissive in their place on a physical level. This is particularly important in wrestling and discipline sessions. 


No client or session is like any other. In person sessions are built with diverse content and prepared for mentally and physically beforehand, to assure I am ready to give the client and myself the best possible experience. 

Text, call and video sessions require different preparation. First, I make sure I know what the client likes. Then, I plan a session with the elements the client requests with some room for improvisation and change if needed.

Online presence and social media management takes up a lot of my time. I got a website, directory profiles, and Twitter to maintain and update frequently. Preparing content in the form of Tweets, blogs, taking pictures and editing is a daily task. I enjoy it since it allows me to be creative and innovative and give people a glimpse of my life. 

The variety of experiences I have makes my life rich. Being a domme is a full time job and beyond. It is a lifestyle and I wouldn’t want any other way. 

Preparing for a Session

Before seeing a client, I make sure we are a good fit for each other by gaining an understanding of their interests and desires. Once the initial connection is established and I agree to take them on as a client, I prepare for our session by picking suitable equipment and attire. Then, it’s time to choose the location for our encounter and make sure I have enough time to set up the space.


I instruct the submissive to get mentally and physically ready for our time together. I may also tell them what to expect from our playtime. If they wish to bring something to the session, I require them to tell me beforehand, so I can judge if it is appropriate or not to the context. 


Fifteen minutes before the submissive arrives, I meditate and clear my mind. This way, I am open to what might arise and my intuition is heightened. Then, I read through the outline I have written for the session and make sure I remember all the elements we agreed upon. 


When I meet the submissive in the flesh, establishing trust is important. Therefore, I am at first welcoming and friendly, unless the client and I have decided on an alternative form of greeting. I invite the sub to a pre-session briefing where we agree on the general gist of the session, choose safe word(s), starting position and I tell the sub how to refer to me during playtime.  


The last thing happening before the session starts is the submissive taking a shower to rinse off the day and get ready to step over the threshold into subspace. After the shower, they will come out naked or in the attire we agreed upon in our briefing and assume the start position I have given. Let the playtime begin.



First BDSM Memories

My first memory of being dominant is from when I was six years old and instructed a group of local boys to build a treehouse for me. I told them what pieces of wood to use and what I wanted it to look like. If they were being lazy, I yelled at them to keep working and threatened to hit them with a tree branch if they disobeyed. It came naturally to me. 

My second BDSM related memory is from when I was thirteen, when my girlfriend and I hung out by the gas station and an older guy asked us to take our shoes and socks off and play with our feet. He offered us $30 to do so. We thought he was a total creep and ran away. Even though we discarded his offer, the fact that my feet could be profitable stuck to the back of mind.  

My third memory also involves foot fetish. I was fifteen and a rumor spread that a dude in the other class texted girls on messenger asking to buy their used socks. I did not believe it until he asked me himself. I still did not believe him and made him confirm in person he was the one sending the messages. When he did, he also asked if I could tie him to a tree in the forest and leave him there overnight. I thought he was crazy. 

Fast forward ten years, and I'm living in San Francisco being introduced to the Armory and a group of kinksters. I feel like I entered this magical world I always dreamed existed. The energy, the toys, the people, the power exchanges. It felt like a homecoming. 

With this post, I wish to inspire you to look within yourself and reflect on your first BDSM related memories. In this journey of life, it can be valuable to go back to the origins of whatever fantasies we are currently preoccupied with and embrace these first sparks of interest. 



Digital versus in person sessions

Digital domination is increasingly popular these days when people are confined to their home. Sessions come in many forms such as text, call, video call and clips. A digital session gives the submissive a safe space to explore their kinks and the dominatrix to understand their demeanor and desires. This type of play can be a full BDSM experience in itself. 

Another benefit with digital sessions is that they give both the dominatrix and the submissive insights on how to prepare for the best possible session when they meet in the flesh. When used between in person sessions, text, call and video sessions keep up the momentum between the dominatrix and the submissive. In the digital playspace, they can reflect on a previous playtime, plan future explorations, and conduct it as an in person session.

Personally, I used to prefer in person sessions since they let you tune in to and play with the submissive’s energy, body and mind in a way digital sessions fall short of. However, since I had to switch to digital sessions during lockdowns, I have grown to like them more and more. 

Since I love writing, being able to place a submissive in a state of complete devotion through the written word gives me a sense of power and arousal. A text session opens up a creative space where we can explore kinks in depth and build a connection. 


Digital sessions can be exhilarating and liberating, as they allow us to uncover our desires without boundaries that might hold us back in person, such as shyness. Once certain aspects of one’s submission have been explored in a digital space, it can give a deeper understanding of one’s kinks and make it easier to live out a fantasy in real life.



Foot fetish

Foot fetish is one of the most common fetishes, especially amongst men. Various aspects of feet and its accessories are found desirable to different people. Some individuals like the way a foot smells, others enjoy giving it a massage, sucking on toes, or kissing boots. A person could have been attracted to feet all their life or be awakened to this desire at a later time.

Inborn fascination

Have you been attracted to feet as long as you can remember? Perhaps you sat at your mother's feet as a kid fascinated by her pumps. Touching them all over, grabbing onto the heel and putting it in your mouth.

Whether you trace your foot fetish back to a specific memory or not, you have been drawn to feet as long as you can remember. As you grew up, you were attracted to feet at different occasions. Bare feet at the beach, high heels at a nightclub, shoe commercials or the feet of your girlfriend at the time. You cannot remember a time when you did not desire feet, it is simply part of who you are.

Acquired taste

Were you indifferent to feet up until a certain event drew your attention to them? Then, out of the blue, you understood the concept of foot fetish. There was something inherently sexy to the foot you saw that got you interested.

Then, either you pushed the desire away or it opened an arena of exploration. Maybe it took months or even years until another occasion where feet awakened your desire. Perhaps this time you dug deeper into the attraction and looked at a variety of feet and shoes to gain a deeper understanding of the appeal.

Foot worship

What part of the foot excites you most? Is it the sole, top, heel, arch, toes or the foot in its entirety?

When you are alone with feet free to do as you please, do you want to kiss them all over, smell them, suck on the toes, lick the arch or put a stiletto heel down your throat? Perhaps you want to feel feet stepping all over your face and body.

Some people have a desire to be used as a footstool. They want to provide support and relief for another person's feet by letting them rest on their body while they steadily hold a position.

Then, in addition to being fascinated by the foot, people can also be particularly interested in and aroused by pantyhoses, stockings, ankle bracelets, toe rings, socks, shoes, heels and boots.

One thing does not have to exclude another, you can be attracted to all of the above. One sexy example is nylon stockings with stiletto heels that are slowly taken off to unveil bare feet.

Shoe and boot worship

Shoes come in a wide variety, from workout shoes and sneakers to stilettos.

Gym shoes are infused with sweat accumulation over time. This can be particularly appealing to someone who enjoys the odour of feet.

Sneakers and converse shoes are the everyday shoes prone to wear and tear. These shoes are used frequently and thereby show traces of the owners foot along with smell.

Boots have just as much diversity, from gumboots to thigh high boots, there is something for every flavour.

Both shoes and boots are made in a wide variety of fabrics. Leather is the most common and can be nice to feel and smell.

Foot slave

Being fully dedicated to a mistress' feet is an honor to a dedicated foot worshipper. A foot slave's tasks can be to keep her shoe collection clean, provide Her with new shoes, clean Her feet, give Her foot massages, act as Her footstool and follow any instructions She gives him.

Having a foot fetish session with a Dominatrix is a safe way to explore your desires. During your time together, She can introduce you to different aspects of feet and shoes. The Dominatrix can guide you to a clearer understanding of your fetish and show you how pleasurable it can be to indulge in your fantasy.

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Secret life

Stepping across the threshold

As you step into the Dominatrix abode, you cross a threshold between ordinary life and fantasy. Ideally, stressors of daily life are left at the door as you relinquish all control to Her.

When I prepare a room specifically for our session, I step into my role as a Dominatrix and set up the necessary equipment and visualize step by step what lies ahead and potential variations in the session’s content. This way, I am already in the scene and prepared to welcome you in.

Alter ego

The Dominatrix is a powerful force that safely puts you in your place with her attire and demeanor. As a submissive, your task is to obey and worship Her. She makes the rules and you follow them.

Other times, in addition to being under the Dominatrix control, the submissive takes on a whole other personality. Examples include during pet play, adult baby play, and sissy sessions.

This alter ego has its own clothes and behavior, such as in sissy play when the submissive might have acquired a secret wardrobe for his alternate persona. Preparation for this type of play can begin before the session with for example the submissive sissy wearing women’s lingerie underneath his suit during the workday before seeing the Dominatrix.

Chastity

Another secret alteration to a submissive's everyday life is being locked in chastity and giving the Dominatrix the key. Giving Her full control of your manhood can be surprisingly freeing. You no longer need to think about when your next release will be. It is all in Her hands.

We keep a secret to the outside world on both ends of our agreement. You keep the chastity device under your pants and I keep the key on my necklace.

Suitcase of Secrets

Whenever I do an outcall or go on tour, I carry a big bag of secrets with me. Paddles, floggers, crops, restraints, cuffs, tape, latex, leather, lingerie, boots, shoes, lube, strapons, condoms and more fill up a rather substantially sized bag or suitcase as I venture to my destination.

I was once stopped by security at an airport in Norway when they pulled a collar and metal leash out of my carry-on and held it up, showing it intentionally to all travelers behind me saying “what is this?” I looked at them with annoyance and answered “it is a collar and leash, it is pretty clear to me.” They carefully put it back in my suitcase and let me go.

I like keeping my secrets in the bag until I reach my destination. I am sure plenty of Uber drivers and hotel staff have pondered the size and weight of my luggage. I am carrying a whole experience in my suitcase, of course it is heavy as hell.

Freedom in Secrecy

Having a secret component of life can feel liberating. You know there is a space you can enter where you are completely free from the demands of the outside world.

What happens during the time you spend with a Dominatrix largely remains a secret whether you are open to people in your life about being into BDSM or not. A session gives both the submissive and the Dominatrix a well of memories to visit when a break from the mundane is desired.

Whether you are walking through an airport with a suitcase filled to the brim with BDSM gear, or wearing women’s lingerie underneath your suit at a work meeting, you carry a bit of your secret life with you. Just enough to add an extra spark to your eyes.

Top 5 Femdom Turn Ons

1. Complete Control 

Nothing excites me more than knowing you are fully at my mercy. 100% devoted to serving me. Your pain and pleasure lies in my hands and I thrive from making the most of it.

2. Cock and Ball Torture

I absolutely love playing with a subs cock and balls. Especially inflicting pain with my hands; squeezing your balls, and using my nails on the head of your cock. Ballbusting using my feet to kick your balls is another favourite.

3. Pegging

I love the change of power dynamics when I put on my strap-on and get ready to fuck. I enjoy fucking first timers as much as more experienced men. Sensual and slow or hard and fast, pegging makes me feel strong, excited and empowered.

4. Foot worship

A submissive fully devoted to my feet that takes his time to give me a proper foot massage and then kisses and licks every part of my feet. After this, I step on his face and make him fully immerse himself in my feet. 

5. Tease and Denial

I love using my sensuality and curves to make you crave for me. Then, perhaps I’ll play with you just a little, before teasing you with my feminine beauty, making you beg for more.



First Timers

Are you curious if the world of BDSM is for you? Maybe you have looked at kink porn and felt surprisingly aroused. Perhaps walked by a sex shop with a window exhibition of latex and cuffs. Or more likely in today’s world, you have seen fifty shades of grey and desired to be Anastasia instead of Christian.

Personally, I feel honored to guide people into the vast domain of kink. I am super excited every time I get the opportunity to allow newbies to try things they have fantasized about in real life. 

At first, we have conversations on text to figure out what you would like to try and what is off limits. Then, when we meet in person, these are followed up by a detailed introduction and agreement between the two of us of what will be explored within a session. 

After exploring curiosity, content and limits, the real fun begins. Once you emerge from the shower in our agreed upon attire, I will have a session planned specifically for your needs and desires. I carefully start at a low level of impact and check in when felt necessary as I gradually increase intensity throughout our time together. 


If anything we try is not your cup of tea, I make sure you are ok to continue with something else or if you would like to pause and debrief about the activity. In a tempo suitable to us both, I guide you through pain and pleasure until we reach a climax and then hold space for you as you transition back to everyday consciousness. 

Once the session is over, we have a chat about how the various elements were to you. I encourage you to share from your experience and what you enjoyed and what might not have been as expected. I make sure you are in a good condition to leave, before sending you off with unparalleled memories and either a fully scratched itch or the beginning of a beautiful journey into the universe of kink.  



Pegging

Have you fantasized about a powerful woman wearing a strap on? Perhaps played with the idea of her grabbing you by the hair and putting her cock deep inside your mouth before flipping you around and slowly sliding into your wet ass? 

If this sounds like you, you are not alone. Many men find great enjoyment from anal play and being fucked in the ass by a woman. 

But that’s how the gay play you might say. So what. Why should homosexual men experience more pleasure than you?

I understand it might not be the easiest thing to ask your partner to put something up your butthole. Especially if you have never shown interest in such before. Maybe you are simply curious and do not even know if you will enjoy it. This is where seeing a professional provides a safe way to explore your desires. 

A dominatrix will ease you into the anal experience at your level of comfort. She can guide you deeper into delight with her fingers and toys. More importantly perhaps, she also knows when to stop and when to move forward. Through experience, she has learned to handle anything that might happen during playtime. With Her, you are in a safe place to explore. 

Treat yourself to anal exploration. You might uncover new levels of pleasure and sensation. 



Pre Christmas Pleasure Package

Christmas holds the potential for both stress and serenity. Allow me to make sure you get more of the latter. 

Whether the festive season at the end of the year is a time of great joy or despair to you, one thing is sure, you deserve a treat. A present sure to be a feast to all your senses is a booking with an escort.

A Christmas date can include traditional treats such as cookies and eggnog or be customized to fulfill your desires. Perhaps you'd like me to open the door naked wrapped in Christmas lights? 

It makes me incredibly happy to plan a date that will leave us ecstatic and with secret memories to cherish forever. 

Let us put our imaginations together and create the ultimate Christmas date.

Merry Christmas



Dinner date

A dinner date booking is one of the best ways to assure your time with a companion is a success.

Indulging in culinary delights in a dimly lit restaurant allows you to get to know each other and build up sexual tension in time for dessert.

A cheeky smile, gentle touch of hands and caressing each other's thighs under the table turns up the heat while you wait for the food. Once the meal arrives you can enjoy the taste and conversation inspiration. If you ever run short of things to talk about different ingredients, restaurants and dishes you enjoy is a safe bet.

If you are comfortable enough with each other, indulging in a sweet delight for desert could be the beginning of foreplay. Perhaps you could feed each other a spoonful of chocolate mousse followed by your first kiss?

Bon appetit!

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5 Reasons to visit a dominatrix

Tension release

Are you in a high pressure job where you have to be switched on and ready to handle any challenge 24/7? Imagine being able to fully separate your mind and body from all responsibilities and hand over the reigns of your existence for a couple hours. Separating fully from stressors can bring forth a huge tension release and leave you feeling euphoric and ready to take on challenges with a clear mind.

An unfulfilled desire to be submissive

Have you fantasized about a powerful woman taking charge of your body and mind? Is it something you are unlikely to admit to desiring in your everyday life? This is where hiring a professional dominatrix is a great idea to let you explore an aspect of yourself you have not given space before in the right set and setting. She will guide you into the new world of submission and together you will uncover what aspects of submission are most suitable for you to unpack.

Expanded understanding of power dynamics

Being in a state of submission is very different from many peoples everyday reality. Putting yourself in such a position can give you valuable insights into what it is like to be under someone else’s control and influence. 


You are always in control and would like to experience giving up control

Are you the boss in your personal and professional life? Do people turn to you expecting you to always be in control? Do you always have every little aspect of your life planned out to the finest detail? Imagine not having to make any decisions and simply follow directions without knowing what will happen next. If you dare step into an experience so far from your ordinary day to day life, it can give you a great release of tension as previously mentioned and open your mind to see things from different perspectives. 

You are open minded and would like to try something new

If you are naturally open minded, adventurous and curious about different dimensions of sexuality, it can be a rewarding experience to dive into the world of BDSM guided by a professional. A session with a dominatrix will  let you discover something new to add to your sexual repertoire. It may let unpack another aspect of your sexuality which can open you up to a whole range of experiences previously unexplored. At the very least you will leave with exciting memories and another thing to cross off your bucket list.

Sexual Energy

Sexual energy, libido, lust, desire, passion, eroticism, a powerful force with many names. This inborn power enlivens and invigorates us. The stronger our passion is, the more it assists us in being vital and present with life. 

The strength of our libido can make us more creative and inspired. Flowing through life seems less challenged when we are infused with the energetic force of desire.

Both lack of, longing for, and experiences of playing in the realm of lust inspires great works of art. Paintings, poetry, movies, plays and music are full of words and imagery inspired by eroticism.

Sometimes, our sexual energy lacks an appropriate outlet, and the force gets bottled up inside. This may cause anger, aggression and dissatisfaction with life and sexuality.

This is where I come in, providing a safe space to get back in touch with your libido. When we are together, and even before we meet in the flesh, I encourage you to explore your sexuality. I invite you into my playground, where you are free to embrace all aspects of yourself. Trust me to ignite your passion, and send you back into the world infused with at least a little more lust for life.

5 Reasons to Become a Regular

1. Building a priceless connection that gets stronger over time

When you see your provider on a regular basis, you have the ability to connect on multiple levels, both physical, mental and emotional. When such a connection gets established, the communication becomes easier and every meeting can allow you to uncover new aspects of yourself and your sexuality.

2. The provider will know what you like

Instead of having to play the “figure out what I like game” or having to act as an instructor, when you see someone frequently, the provider will already know your preferences. 

3. Exploring new things feels safe 

If you feel like trying something new, such as a new service or fantasy, you have already established a relationship with mutual trust, which makes it easier to introduce new things to explore into the time you spend together. 

4. The excitement builds between each visit

In the time you spend apart, you can fantasize about the moments you have spent together. These lived fantasies are yours to forever play out in your mind. In between visits, you can imagine the things you will do together at your next playdate, keeping the momentum up in times when it is needed. 

5. Mutual appreciation of how you enrich each other's life

As you continue seeing each other and building a stronger connection, you will both look forward to the time you spend together and your secret escape from everyday life. 

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GFE vs. PSE

When you arrange to see a provider are you looking for a woman dressed in nice lingerie, sex in ordinary positions and a massage? Or are you seeking something more kinky where your chosen lady wears a naughty outfit, role play, wild positions and dirty talk? In short, are you after a girlfriend experience (GFE) or pornstar experience (PSE). 

The girlfriend experience is the most regular service requested. This basic session can include sexy undergarments, affectionate kisses, foreplay, sex in a variety of (not too wild) positions, and massage. Note that I am saying a GFE can include these things. Different providers offer some or all of the above. Passionate kissing is one of the things it’s probably better to check in with the worker to see if she offers such as part of her service. 

PSE is usually more expensive and can include some of the services from GFE, but is usually a wild or kinky encounter. This service can be a little more on the rough side with sex in a wider variety of positions, role play, BDSM such as bondage and spanking, fetishes, golden showers, outfits and dirty talk. The pornstar experience can also include some of these services at the providers discretion such oral without a condom (BBBJ), cum on face (COF), cum in mouth (CIM), cum in mouth with swallow (CIMWS) and anal sex. 

Make sure you choose a service and provider suited to your desires. Do yourself a favour and research your lady of choice. Read her profile and webpage carefully to see if she offers what you are after, before getting in touch and you’re more likely to get your needs met and fantasies fulfilled.

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Directories

There are hundreds of escort directories online, some local and other international. A segment of these are aimed at the lower end of the market, while others cater to the higher end of the spectrum. What they have in common is the need for sex workers signing up and clients choosing providers from their page over others.

What makes a directory successful? Factors include branding, design, user friendliness, layout of the page, SEO, and in my opinion people. The people behind the idea of the directory, the ones who put the page together and the people who run it on a daily basis creates the foundation. 

All of this does not mean much unless it can attract the right sex workers to put a profile on their page and also recommend the directory over others. Then comes the clients, who need to either know about the directory or find it easily when doing a search.

When I put my profile on an established directory, I consider its design, wanting it to be simple, classy and sexy and be able to reflect who I am as an escort. Then, I look at the sex workers on it, to see if they are in the same category as myself. After which, I see how the page performs on a Google search, if it is on Twitter, and any feedback that might have been given about it. Then, I’ll ask a worker friend and a client if they have heard about it and their opinion.

New directories seem to pop out of nowhere on a weekly basis these days, sending lengthy text messages and emails full of promises of benefits. When I choose to put a profile on a new directory, I look past messages promising the world from directories I have never heard of, to personal invitations from trustworthy people with industry experience. 

In a time where the world has changed to the unrecognizable within a couple of months, where established directories change for the worse and new ones for the better, who knows what page will be the most popular in the future. Therefore, it can be a good idea to go directory shopping and see if there are new ones that fit your needs more where you currently advertise. On one hand you might get a good laugh and know what to steer clear off and on the other hand find a new favorite and gain some inspiration.

Virtual Companion

Our lives are changing to the unrecognizable and our jobs must keep up. The world we find ourselves in is a socially distant one, where touch is nothing but a sweet memory. New problems call for new solutions and for many of us going virtual is the way to go.

At first glance, becoming a virtual companion seems like a perfect business in times where we already live a lot of our lives through a screen. But what about providers who have never thought of offering any kind of service through a phone or laptop? 

It is not as simple as just switching to online offerings when your business is based around physical contact. When what is unique about your offering is the connection created in a physical, emotional and energetic field shared between two (or more) people in an intimate setting, such an experience can be difficult if not impossible to translate into a virtual experience

Therefore, it takes creativity and thinking outside the box to come up with offerings most suitable to your work persona. It may seem hard, but it will be worth the effort to put extra thought into what your strengths as a provider are and how they can be transferred onto the screen. However, if you put time and energy into creating online offerings that are truly you, then these can not only bring in what you need to thrive these days, but also expand your platform in valuable ways for times when we can touch each other again without a screen. 

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This is the best time to visit a sex worker

Why on Earth is the midpoint of a pandemic a good time to see a sex worker? 

First, we are already extremely careful about hygiene and sanitization of our workspace. The pending threat of disease makes us even more cautious, so rest assured, you're most likely stepping into one of the last places a virus would survive.

Second, the public fear has made some clients cancel their bookings and others think twice about making one. As a result those who decide to see us will really make our day and be shown how much we value them as a client.

Third, in a time of gloom, you are much better suited to deal with whatever life throws at you when you're happy. That's where we come in. Sex and physical touch are directly related to happiness. Some may even go as far as saying sex is the key to happiness and good health. 

Now, I highly encourage you to visit your local sex worker, gain some valuable sanitization tips, share some laughs and protected intimacy and leave with a smile on your face. If anything, it should prepare you to more easily slide through what may become a time of even greater despair.

Role Play

“How could they hire someone as incompetent as you for the sales position? I haven’t seen anyone as useless as you in years. Now, I can think of a couple ways for you to make up for that...” 

Welcome to the world of role play. My personal favourites include naughty secretary, inspecting landlady, stepsister, demanding boss, and pornstar at job interview. 

Stepping into a role adds another layer of excitement and permission to leave the mundane behind

I love assisting clients to act out their fantasies. Personally, I find acting thrilling and particularly enjoy the process of getting into character and the improvisation that follows. Whether it's acting out a script or acting an open role, it encourages a playfulness that invigorates our lives long after the play is over

New Year. New Explorations.

My heart beat faster as I surrendered to his touch. I released all desire to resist as he put cuffs around my wrists and locked my arms together behind my back. I willingly let him take control over me, the untamable one.

A fresh awareness of body and breath arose as I was liberated from performing. He gently threw me down on the couch face down. His soft, yet firm hands caressed my butt before he spanked me once on each cheek. Is that all you got? The moment it slipped out of me, I both regretted saying such and felt an extreme excitement for what came next. He slapped my right buttcheek so hard it gave off a perfect spanking sound. The arousing pain stripped my mind from thoughts as my body became all sensation. 

I quickly snapped out of it as my perfectionist self came back to hold the reigns of my brain. How was it that this newbie gave off a better spanking sound on my ass than I do on others? Perhaps my booty just give off a good sound? Dammit, just as easy as I lost control, my mind was ready to take it back. I told my first dominant to release me, and that I had enough for the first time. Inside, I craved for more. 

The exhilaration I felt from releasing control infused me with new excitement for life and work. Now, I know what it’s like not to think or plan or hold space. Unaware of what will happen next. Aware only of sensations. Outside the mind, in the field of the body, where pleasure and pain become one.